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9
Dec

Orpheus and Eurydice. Rainer Maria Rilke

Orpheus Eurydice Richard-Putz

Orpheus. Eurydice. Hermes

That was the strange mine of souls.
As secret ores of silver they passed
like veins through its darkness. Between the roots
blood welled, flowing onwards to Mankind,
and it looked as hard as Porphyry in the darkness.
Otherwise nothing was red.

There were cliffs
and straggling woods. Bridges over voids,
and that great grey blind lake,
that hung above its distant floor
like a rain-filled sky above a landscape.
And between meadows, soft and full of patience,
one path, a pale strip, appeared,
passing by like a long bleached thing.

And down this path they came.

In front the slim man in the blue mantle,
mute and impatient, gazing before him.
His steps ate up the path in huge bites
without chewing: his hands hung,
clumsy and tight, from the falling folds,
and no longer aware of the weightless lyre,
grown into his left side,
like a rose-graft on an olive branch.
And his senses were as if divided:
while his sight ran ahead like a dog,
turned back, came and went again and again,
and waited at the next turn, positioned there –
his hearing was left behind like a scent.

Sometimes it seemed to him as if it reached
as far as the going of those other two,
who ought to be following this complete ascent.

Then once more it was only the repeated sound of his climb
and the breeze in his mantle behind him.
But he told himself that they were still coming:
said it aloud and heard it die away.

They were still coming, but they were two
fearfully light in their passage. If only he might
turn once more ( if looking back
were not the ruin of all his work,
that first had to be accomplished), then he must see them,
the quiet pair, mutely following him:
the god of errands and far messages,
the travelling-hood above his shining eyes,
the slender wand held out before his body,
the beating wings at his ankle joints;
and on his left hand, as entrusted: her.

The so-beloved, that out of one lyre
more grief came than from all grieving women:
so that a world of grief arose, in which
all things were there once more: forest and valley,
and road and village, field and stream and creature:
and that around this grief-world, just as
around the other earth, a sun
and a silent star-filled heaven turned,
a grief-heaven with distorted stars –
she was so-loved.

But she went at that god’s left hand,
her steps confined by the long grave-cloths,
uncertain, gentle, and without impatience.
She was in herself, like a woman near term,
and did not think of the man, going on ahead,
or the path, climbing upwards towards life.

She was in herself. And her being-dead
filled her with abundance.
As a fruit with sweetness and darkness,
so she was full with her vast death,
that was so new, she comprehended nothing.

She was in a new virginity
and untouchable: her sex was closed
like a young flower at twilight,
and her hands had been weaned so far
from marriage that even the slight god’s
endlessly gentle touch, as he led,
hurt her like too great an intimacy.

She was no longer that blonde woman,
sometimes touched on in the poet’s songs,
no longer the wide bed’s scent and island,
and that man’s possession no longer.

She was already loosened like long hair,
given out like fallen rain,
shared out like a hundredfold supply.

She was already root.

And when suddenly
the god stopped her and, with anguish in his cry,
uttered the words: ‘He has turned round’ –
she comprehended nothing and said softly: ‘Who?’

But far off, darkly before the bright exit,
stood someone or other, whose features
were unrecognizable. Who stood and saw
how on the strip of path between meadows,
with mournful look, the god of messages
turned, silently, to follow the figure
already walking back by that same path,
her steps confined by the long grave-cloths,
uncertain, gentle, and without impatience.

Orpheus and Eurydice. Rainer Maria Rilke
Painting by Michael Putz-Richard

5
Dec

the sweet spirit that is you…

When we first met
there was something that struck me
a feeling I could not shake
something about you
held the flame that could thaw my love

It was true
and it came to be
the sweet spirit that is you
against all odds
un-froze my heart

but over time
the darker angel that is my demon
fought to keep my heart on ice
the ongoing battle
damaged our love
destroyed your trust
broke your heart and mine

The demon inside me
has done it’s best
to take all that is good
and right now, without you
I feel that I am barren, bereft and alone

The blessing is that
my heart is still open
giving me hope, a chance to surrender
a chance to heal
you have given me this
I am truly grateful

If our life together
Is the price that must be paid
a chance to truly change
a spiritual awakening
reborn to a new a new life
the cost is so high
I am catching my breath
I can’t breathe
trying to believe
hoping that faith will carry us through

The feelings of regret
the sorrow in my heart
color the lens through which I see the day
I wish you could understand
what you mean to me
my actions have not shown this
I am so sorry
I wish you could understand
the loss I feel
with you gone from my life

I miss you every waking moment
I hope and I pray
we can be together again
down the road
When we have both healed
and become the people that God meant us to be

I am told it will take time
I can’t trust a hope
but I will wait
put my heart on hold
Till there comes a time
that the chance presents itself
to show you
I have become the man
That you believed that I could be

If it was meant to be
It will be
and at our being rejoined
the heavens will open
and my heart will soar
my gratitude
will flow, tears streaming down my cheeks
the joy of laughter
ringing through the air

© Kit Latham

North Adams Ma
December 5, 2009